God is funny.

My whole life feels like a reaction. Like everything has been just me reacting to the things that others have done.

I dont know how to trust people easily. I can forgive someone, but I am still angry and my trust is gone. I never imagined this would be me. I never imagined I would be hurt so bad. I never knew how I would react.

I read one of my favorite verses today, "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4, and trust me when I say that it is hard to find joy in the face of trials. All I feel is pain, and frustration, and anger sometimes. But the joy and beauty in everything comes from God. My God is pulling me closer to him every second. And I am running toward him with everything I have. He will protect me and take the pain away. People are imperfect. Its hard for a person to take away another persons pain. But my God will take it away, and that is so wonderful and it brings me joy.

This semester and especially this week, it has been put on my heart to learn to forgive. I have been wanting to do this for 9 months now but I havent known how to. I have to start with my father. On the 21st, he is coming to visit me and I am going to take him to an Aggie football game. I dont believe that him calling me the day I was thinking about calling him was an accident.....I cant wait for the 21st. I am so excited, and that is a very unexpected feeling.

God works in funny, funny ways. And I like that too.

And whoop for the yankeeeeeeeeeeeeees!
...and a new friend.